So I've decided that I'm going to be moving back home to Cranbook B.c. . My friend Kim and her Brother are going to be coming to pick me up and were going to just take our time going back down. I'm glad I'm finally escaping this place, it really has done no good for me, I couldn't even really find good honest people that are actually genuine. Instead I found fake ass druggy hispsters that just think about them selves. So I'm done with that shit and ready to start fresh again. I'm excited.
Peace and love.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
The pursuit of happiness The beginning.
The reason for starting this blog was so I could get how my life straight in my head. In this blog I will talk about the start are my hard drug addiction and just how I feel with life and it's great moments and it's depressing moments..
I moved to Fort St John B.c. in the winter of 2008 with the mind set of needing to leave as soon as possible. With in the first few months I did not try and meet anyone I just stayed in my own world doing the same things everyday Go to school come home play games go to bed repeat. After nearly 8 months of that I was forced to get a job by my father which I reluctantly did anyways. I got a job at Canadian tire where I ended my career as a supervisor in may of 2010. During my time there my life made a huge amount of changes such as finding someone whom I thought was my best friend I could ever have, met the girl who I thought could be the love of my life, found the most destructive little pill that threw my life into hell.
My use of ecstasy started quite mild I only used it a few times before moving to FSJ. After one time doing here I noticed how much I actually enjoyed it. The use of the drug started to become more rampant in my life from ever few weekend to eventually pushing thousands of pills through one town. I started to use it almost everyday. I didn't care how I got it but I would get it. I was an addict and no one even knew. It got to the point that I would order 500 tabs and 200 were personal (only used for me). During this time I was starting a already rocky relationship with a girl. We'll call her Angela. At the start of this relationship we already had problems going because of drugs, not only with me we were both quite heavily involved with them. During my birthday camping party she re introduced me to cocaine. A simple powder that can make the biggest tears in your life. It wasn't my first time using blow but it was my first time being really high on it. After that it became a much more problematic use, I know that I can't count how much money I used to obtain this habit and I probably don't want to. But my still main addiction was ecstasy I have tried numerous times to quit. My longest time has been a month. But with in that time I still used cocaine though. I've ruined relationships friend ships part of my family all because of one little pill. I have gotten chemical set depression because of all the shit I put into body, my brain won't produce certain chemicals now to even give me basic happiness...
I moved to Fort St John B.c. in the winter of 2008 with the mind set of needing to leave as soon as possible. With in the first few months I did not try and meet anyone I just stayed in my own world doing the same things everyday Go to school come home play games go to bed repeat. After nearly 8 months of that I was forced to get a job by my father which I reluctantly did anyways. I got a job at Canadian tire where I ended my career as a supervisor in may of 2010. During my time there my life made a huge amount of changes such as finding someone whom I thought was my best friend I could ever have, met the girl who I thought could be the love of my life, found the most destructive little pill that threw my life into hell.
My use of ecstasy started quite mild I only used it a few times before moving to FSJ. After one time doing here I noticed how much I actually enjoyed it. The use of the drug started to become more rampant in my life from ever few weekend to eventually pushing thousands of pills through one town. I started to use it almost everyday. I didn't care how I got it but I would get it. I was an addict and no one even knew. It got to the point that I would order 500 tabs and 200 were personal (only used for me). During this time I was starting a already rocky relationship with a girl. We'll call her Angela. At the start of this relationship we already had problems going because of drugs, not only with me we were both quite heavily involved with them. During my birthday camping party she re introduced me to cocaine. A simple powder that can make the biggest tears in your life. It wasn't my first time using blow but it was my first time being really high on it. After that it became a much more problematic use, I know that I can't count how much money I used to obtain this habit and I probably don't want to. But my still main addiction was ecstasy I have tried numerous times to quit. My longest time has been a month. But with in that time I still used cocaine though. I've ruined relationships friend ships part of my family all because of one little pill. I have gotten chemical set depression because of all the shit I put into body, my brain won't produce certain chemicals now to even give me basic happiness...
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